Hard to remember all that happened this month. There were many good events and some new learning experiences for us. Barry, Tim and I were able to celebrate my 49th birthday in Phoenix/Flagstaff, Arizona along with our 25th wedding anniversary. It was so nice being able to see that part of God's country and to visit the St. Laurents and the Fowlers. And who wouldn't love being able to see the Grand Canyon. Pictures don't show the magnitude of the Grand Canyon. It is truly breathtaking. We were so fortunate to be able to go to Arizona and we know we will have to return for Part 2 since there is so much more to see.
And this month gave me the opportunity to come into contact with so many new friends and even old relatives. It's so great having such a support group when you are going through bad times. Support surely is needed at times like these. Thanks to all for just a smile, a hug or a prayer.
And then to come back to what would be a total of 3 surgeries after being diagnosed with metaplastic carcinoma/breast cancer. It definitely wasn't something that I had on my calendar to do this month! But that's in the past, and I'm looking to the future now. I've been diagnosed, did some necessary prep work and will eventually start the treatment once my body heals. Then my new doctor friend will be George Garrow/oncologist at Sharon Cancer Care unit. He's also a good neighbor of ours.
I wasn't able to sleep at all last night even with medication. But that's OK. I did nap this morning. I've been told there will be more nights like that one, adrenalin kicks in and there's so much on your mind.
A beautiful warm day with temps in 70s. Even have windows open to air out the house. Can see tulips popping through the ground, along with rhubarb. Lisa Pearson called to see how I was doing. She is going to bring over a crock pot dinner tomorrow. What a treat!
And Barry's been so good to me. Somewhere in the small print of the marriage agreement, it says in sickness and in health. And he's helping me with the sickness part now like a real pro. Helps me with my drain. Not much liquid so hope to have it removed quickly. Will be calling the doctor tomorrow per his instructions.
Thursday, March 31, 2005
Wednesday, March 30, 2005
All in all a good day! Axillary lymph nodes removed
This is an email I got from my sister today:
"Your journal was MISSED today but u were MISSED more. no email buddy today for me. i work thurs and friday.can call me at work." adios moe
I know that my family especially sat by their phones today for the news that Barry would be spreading. And also all my friends, both old and new. And to fellow survivors that have come into my life recently.
I wasn't going to post today but Barry just asked if I had, and so here it goes from what I remember:
Barry and I got to Edgewood Hospital at 11 a.m. and were greeted so kindly as in the past. I'm an old timer now, 3 surgeries in 1 month. No wonder I'm whipped, but I am able to tell you about it. I was told by one of the anesthetists Steve that Chris, my favorite anesthetist was working with another patient. But he had left instructions with his co-worker that if I would like him to do me (what an offer) that they could switch places and he would come to my side. I assured Steve that it was nothing against him, but I might "have to walk" if Chris were not there! He totally was OK with Chris being assigned to me and was going to tell Chris.
One of the nurses went to put my IV in the same area that was used previously but... she had some difficulty and that became an OUCH. I could feel the sweat on my forehead as I pushed my bangs up to top of head. Am very thankful that Steve jumped in to help her out. Putting IV's in is a very hard and touchy thing to do. No one's fault, just happens sometimes. A nurse by the name of Nancy walked by and saw me in distress and said to me -"It looks like you need to be distracted." and started to do a funny dance. She then came to me and placed her nice cold hands on my cheeks and then on the back of my neck. That felt like a million dollars. From my first meeting her, she had told me that her hands were always cold. And boy, they were a gift from God today. She reminds me for some reason of my mother-in-law Kathy.
Chris stopped by with nice smile on his face. Sure does have a nice bedside manner. Before I knew it, Chris had the vials of good meds in his hand and quickly in the IV. Didn't even see him do it, but after a second I looked at him and asked if he had injected the sedation. He surely had and boy was it fast acting. That was the end of pre-op and the beginning of surgery.
Surgery lasted approximately 1 hr. and 20 minutes according to Barry. I spoke briefly to Dr. Henwood in recovery, and he assured me that I could stay in a hospital room for couple of hours if need be to get up to speed to go home. I had a more difficult time coming out of anesthesia today. It could have been due to longer surgery than the others. I was also told by Barry that I had some kind of heater blowing under my sheets to keep me warm as I had been shivering. That felt good. I did have it shut off eventually. After coming to, unlike the other 2 surgeries, my breast didn't hurt. Now isn't that a miracle. Perhaps this is due to the fact that my underarm area was involved this time!
I decided to stay for some time in a hospital room and had dinner there. Got to the room at about 3 p.m., went to bathroom (muchly needed) and got myself back into bed. The nurse showed Barry how to drain the J-drain, which was done a couple of times while I was there. The staff in the in patient area were also very nice and comforting to me. There was a new nurse there Jeannie who was there for her 2nd day on the job. I told her that I've been to the hospital more days than she has!
I rested until dinner (not sleeping, but just being able to think positive thoughts/thanking God for such wonderful care today) which was chicken francaise, asparagus and new potatoes. The IV was eventually disconnected and I was able to leave the hospital after dinner.
As soon as I got home, I called to speak with Tim at Ben's house. He was very happy that I was home. Wanted to make sure that he could still sleep at Ben's house!
And since so many people are cheering me on, I felt the need to send an email to all just to say briefly that I was home. Thanks so much for your continued prayers and positive energy. I'm nice and comfy now in one of Barry's old work shirts, with my J drain tucked in my bra.
And as they say in Mexico, Dad: Adios for the day.
"Your journal was MISSED today but u were MISSED more. no email buddy today for me. i work thurs and friday.can call me at work." adios moe
I know that my family especially sat by their phones today for the news that Barry would be spreading. And also all my friends, both old and new. And to fellow survivors that have come into my life recently.
I wasn't going to post today but Barry just asked if I had, and so here it goes from what I remember:
Barry and I got to Edgewood Hospital at 11 a.m. and were greeted so kindly as in the past. I'm an old timer now, 3 surgeries in 1 month. No wonder I'm whipped, but I am able to tell you about it. I was told by one of the anesthetists Steve that Chris, my favorite anesthetist was working with another patient. But he had left instructions with his co-worker that if I would like him to do me (what an offer) that they could switch places and he would come to my side. I assured Steve that it was nothing against him, but I might "have to walk" if Chris were not there! He totally was OK with Chris being assigned to me and was going to tell Chris.
One of the nurses went to put my IV in the same area that was used previously but... she had some difficulty and that became an OUCH. I could feel the sweat on my forehead as I pushed my bangs up to top of head. Am very thankful that Steve jumped in to help her out. Putting IV's in is a very hard and touchy thing to do. No one's fault, just happens sometimes. A nurse by the name of Nancy walked by and saw me in distress and said to me -"It looks like you need to be distracted." and started to do a funny dance. She then came to me and placed her nice cold hands on my cheeks and then on the back of my neck. That felt like a million dollars. From my first meeting her, she had told me that her hands were always cold. And boy, they were a gift from God today. She reminds me for some reason of my mother-in-law Kathy.
Chris stopped by with nice smile on his face. Sure does have a nice bedside manner. Before I knew it, Chris had the vials of good meds in his hand and quickly in the IV. Didn't even see him do it, but after a second I looked at him and asked if he had injected the sedation. He surely had and boy was it fast acting. That was the end of pre-op and the beginning of surgery.
Surgery lasted approximately 1 hr. and 20 minutes according to Barry. I spoke briefly to Dr. Henwood in recovery, and he assured me that I could stay in a hospital room for couple of hours if need be to get up to speed to go home. I had a more difficult time coming out of anesthesia today. It could have been due to longer surgery than the others. I was also told by Barry that I had some kind of heater blowing under my sheets to keep me warm as I had been shivering. That felt good. I did have it shut off eventually. After coming to, unlike the other 2 surgeries, my breast didn't hurt. Now isn't that a miracle. Perhaps this is due to the fact that my underarm area was involved this time!
I decided to stay for some time in a hospital room and had dinner there. Got to the room at about 3 p.m., went to bathroom (muchly needed) and got myself back into bed. The nurse showed Barry how to drain the J-drain, which was done a couple of times while I was there. The staff in the in patient area were also very nice and comforting to me. There was a new nurse there Jeannie who was there for her 2nd day on the job. I told her that I've been to the hospital more days than she has!
I rested until dinner (not sleeping, but just being able to think positive thoughts/thanking God for such wonderful care today) which was chicken francaise, asparagus and new potatoes. The IV was eventually disconnected and I was able to leave the hospital after dinner.
As soon as I got home, I called to speak with Tim at Ben's house. He was very happy that I was home. Wanted to make sure that he could still sleep at Ben's house!
And since so many people are cheering me on, I felt the need to send an email to all just to say briefly that I was home. Thanks so much for your continued prayers and positive energy. I'm nice and comfy now in one of Barry's old work shirts, with my J drain tucked in my bra.
And as they say in Mexico, Dad: Adios for the day.
Tuesday, March 29, 2005
Results are in!
I slept good last night. When I woke up, I did such a good stretch from head to toe. Can't remember when I last did that. Just layed there and stretched.
Went to see Dr. Henwood at 9 a.m. and he confirmed that the biopsy showed clear margin! The result that I've been praying for. The past two or so weeks have been so hectic on my brain, everything I think is geared toward one subject. But I know I'm heading in the right direction.
The next step, as Dr. Garrow (oncologist) had previously mentioned to me, will be removal of lymph nodes under my arm: (axillary lymph node dissection, in which the surgeon removes a number of lymph nodes from under the arm and has them examined by a pathologist for cancer cells.) And to stay on track, I am having this 3rd sugery this month done tomorrow at about noon. This will involve placing a drain/port in me, and having it drain for about 3-5 days. He said that I may have to stay overnight at hospital, that will depend on how I make out in recovery. So, I am prepared for that. Have made arrangements for Tim to stay overnight at Ben's house just in case.
After the appt., I made calls to family to once again tell them the updated news. I stopped in at the Bank to say hi to the department, Chrys, Leya and Linda. Gave and received lots of hugs/positive energy.
Tim wanted to go to volleyball game tonight at school. Lisa was kind to take him there along with Ben. When I got on the phone with her, I broke down. This is been such a stressful couple of weeks, non stop motion. I am positive but my new friend Linda has assured me that it's OK to cry. It's something that I deserve to do. I told Lisa that I just needed to sleep for awhile and she was so kind to me.
After a one hr. restful nap, Tim went to the game for couple of hours. I went to Wal Mart as I wanted to pick up some candy for the staff at Edgewood Hospital tomorrow. They have been so kind and caring this month to me.
I am so pleased that everyone is enjoying my blog. It is good therapy to be able to write things down. One year from now I will look back at this time and say "WOW, I made it."
Went to see Dr. Henwood at 9 a.m. and he confirmed that the biopsy showed clear margin! The result that I've been praying for. The past two or so weeks have been so hectic on my brain, everything I think is geared toward one subject. But I know I'm heading in the right direction.
The next step, as Dr. Garrow (oncologist) had previously mentioned to me, will be removal of lymph nodes under my arm: (axillary lymph node dissection, in which the surgeon removes a number of lymph nodes from under the arm and has them examined by a pathologist for cancer cells.) And to stay on track, I am having this 3rd sugery this month done tomorrow at about noon. This will involve placing a drain/port in me, and having it drain for about 3-5 days. He said that I may have to stay overnight at hospital, that will depend on how I make out in recovery. So, I am prepared for that. Have made arrangements for Tim to stay overnight at Ben's house just in case.
After the appt., I made calls to family to once again tell them the updated news. I stopped in at the Bank to say hi to the department, Chrys, Leya and Linda. Gave and received lots of hugs/positive energy.
Tim wanted to go to volleyball game tonight at school. Lisa was kind to take him there along with Ben. When I got on the phone with her, I broke down. This is been such a stressful couple of weeks, non stop motion. I am positive but my new friend Linda has assured me that it's OK to cry. It's something that I deserve to do. I told Lisa that I just needed to sleep for awhile and she was so kind to me.
After a one hr. restful nap, Tim went to the game for couple of hours. I went to Wal Mart as I wanted to pick up some candy for the staff at Edgewood Hospital tomorrow. They have been so kind and caring this month to me.
I am so pleased that everyone is enjoying my blog. It is good therapy to be able to write things down. One year from now I will look back at this time and say "WOW, I made it."
Monday, March 28, 2005
The Waiting Game
Last night I did take a sleeping pill after midnight as I was unable to fall asleep. And it worked so well that I was able to dream. Got out of bed at about 10:45 a.m. Since my dr.'s appt. is tomorrow at 9 a.m., I won't take one tonight. Don't want to oversleep.
The doctor had said he would have the biopsy results today or tomorrow, so today is an anxious day for me. Stomach is a bit upset today in anticipation. Phone rang a while ago, but it was just a solicitor. I wonder if the doctor will just wait until he sees me tomorrow rather than call me today.
4:30 p.m. I had to call the doctor's office. Couldn't wait any longer. Have spent some time in bathroom today. I held the angel that Linda gave me as I dialed the #. Aleesa said the report for the biopsy was in and that it was NEGATIVE for cancer cells. Wanted her to say the exact words clear margin but she wouldn't. Just said it was a good report. The doctor was not in office. She said he will go over everything in morning with me. After hanging up the phone, I sat for awhile looking out the front window and eventually tears poured down my face. I can't even describe what I'm going through. Who would have thought that words such as mastectomy and cancer and chemo would be part of my daily conversation. But after seeing a 17 year old on Dr. Phil's show last week as a breast cancer survivor (mastectomy), I am truly blessed.
Have called family about this good news but will hold off on telling others until I hear it tomorrow from Dr. Henwood. It's just my personal decision.
Tim sound asleep on his bed at 5ish. I had told him the good results earlier. It must be exhausting to a kid to have to go through this also. Thank God he's strong.
The doctor had said he would have the biopsy results today or tomorrow, so today is an anxious day for me. Stomach is a bit upset today in anticipation. Phone rang a while ago, but it was just a solicitor. I wonder if the doctor will just wait until he sees me tomorrow rather than call me today.
4:30 p.m. I had to call the doctor's office. Couldn't wait any longer. Have spent some time in bathroom today. I held the angel that Linda gave me as I dialed the #. Aleesa said the report for the biopsy was in and that it was NEGATIVE for cancer cells. Wanted her to say the exact words clear margin but she wouldn't. Just said it was a good report. The doctor was not in office. She said he will go over everything in morning with me. After hanging up the phone, I sat for awhile looking out the front window and eventually tears poured down my face. I can't even describe what I'm going through. Who would have thought that words such as mastectomy and cancer and chemo would be part of my daily conversation. But after seeing a 17 year old on Dr. Phil's show last week as a breast cancer survivor (mastectomy), I am truly blessed.
Have called family about this good news but will hold off on telling others until I hear it tomorrow from Dr. Henwood. It's just my personal decision.
Tim sound asleep on his bed at 5ish. I had told him the good results earlier. It must be exhausting to a kid to have to go through this also. Thank God he's strong.
Sunday, March 27, 2005
Happy Easter to All
I went to bed last night at about 11:30 p.m. Looked at the clock later on and saw that it was 12:10 a.m. Yeah, Easter Sunday. Barry and Tim were watching cartoons, so I immediately went in and said Happy Easter. Where's the goodies? I quickly got Tim's Easter basket and filled it with the candies I had bought during the week at the drugstore. Heck, it was just one of those weeks that I spent some time at a drugstore! Barry had also picked some candy up for Tim when he filled my prescription after the surgery.
I didn't even have a piece of Tim's candy. Or a drink of soda, can you believe that. I could hear Barry going downstairs and then returning. He opened up the door and gave me a box of Daffin's chocolates. I was so surprised, couldn't figure out when he had the time to buy me those candies. Geez, chocolates/dinner and roses in such a short period of time. One can say that I am truly blessed! I opened up the box and had one chocolate.
Would love to say that I slept peacefully last night but I was up almost every hour. I remember looking at the clock at 3 a.m. and hearing Barry snore so gently. I was thinking to myself that being in such a sound sleep must feel so wonderful. If only that was I. I got up to go to the bathroom a couple of times, and never even opened up a bottle of soda. I think I had my new Blog on my mind. I had spent almost 3 hours last night creating my new online journal, and that was a lot of soul searching in doing so. But well worth it.
The alarm went off at 7 a.m. and we got dressed for Easter mass. All in our nice Sunday clothes.
And compared to last week's mass, I didn't even shed tears today. I truly do feel good about things. Shedding tears can be such a tiring thing to do, and I can't handle such wasteless energy.
Don't think I don't shed any tears, because tears also cleanse the soul.
By the way, today I have blossoms on both my Christmas cactus and of course my Easter lilly.
Another good day.
We're having spiral ham for lunch. Not sure with what else. But that is not important. Being with family is.
Lunch went very well, Eileen! Cooked ham a little extra for "good" luck. Had green beans and instant mashed potato. Been about 1 week since I had a previous home cooked meal.
Took a mini nap and snoozed for about 45 minutes. Sure do miss my old 2 hr. naps. But they will return some day. As I rested, Tim took his new spike track shoes to college track to test them out. He said that you have to get used to them, so going to track to practice was beneficial.
For dinner, made up some potato and ham soup. Just a dry mix kind of soup.
Just FYI (since I have to be honest), I was able to do a "movement" today. Yeah.
Took a nice shower this evening, and even cleaned the tub walls while in there.
All in all, a good day.
I didn't even have a piece of Tim's candy. Or a drink of soda, can you believe that. I could hear Barry going downstairs and then returning. He opened up the door and gave me a box of Daffin's chocolates. I was so surprised, couldn't figure out when he had the time to buy me those candies. Geez, chocolates/dinner and roses in such a short period of time. One can say that I am truly blessed! I opened up the box and had one chocolate.
Would love to say that I slept peacefully last night but I was up almost every hour. I remember looking at the clock at 3 a.m. and hearing Barry snore so gently. I was thinking to myself that being in such a sound sleep must feel so wonderful. If only that was I. I got up to go to the bathroom a couple of times, and never even opened up a bottle of soda. I think I had my new Blog on my mind. I had spent almost 3 hours last night creating my new online journal, and that was a lot of soul searching in doing so. But well worth it.
The alarm went off at 7 a.m. and we got dressed for Easter mass. All in our nice Sunday clothes.
And compared to last week's mass, I didn't even shed tears today. I truly do feel good about things. Shedding tears can be such a tiring thing to do, and I can't handle such wasteless energy.
Don't think I don't shed any tears, because tears also cleanse the soul.
By the way, today I have blossoms on both my Christmas cactus and of course my Easter lilly.
Another good day.
We're having spiral ham for lunch. Not sure with what else. But that is not important. Being with family is.
Lunch went very well, Eileen! Cooked ham a little extra for "good" luck. Had green beans and instant mashed potato. Been about 1 week since I had a previous home cooked meal.
Took a mini nap and snoozed for about 45 minutes. Sure do miss my old 2 hr. naps. But they will return some day. As I rested, Tim took his new spike track shoes to college track to test them out. He said that you have to get used to them, so going to track to practice was beneficial.
For dinner, made up some potato and ham soup. Just a dry mix kind of soup.
Just FYI (since I have to be honest), I was able to do a "movement" today. Yeah.
Took a nice shower this evening, and even cleaned the tub walls while in there.
All in all, a good day.
Saturday, March 26, 2005
On the way to healing
I woke up at 8:30 a.m. and immediately took a shower after taking bandage off. The incision is bigger than the first one. Can see the swollen area. During the shower, I was getting sick kind of feeling. Couldn't wait to dry my hair. Did feel good to shower, but bed would feel even better.
I got right back into bed after saying hi to Barry and the boys. I did offer to cook breakfast for them, but am thankful that Barry said no thanks.
For the first time in a long time, I dreamed after going back to bed. I dreamed that there were deer in my back yard. I told Tim out in the hot tub and they must have heard me. The deer scurried away. Boy, did it feel good to dream. For once, I felt that I was actually able to sleep.
I got up at about 11 a.m. Tim and Josh had rode their bikes downtown. Josh got picked up. I continued to be dopey feeling, and I don't like that feeling. Got myself dressed and filled the deer feeder with some food. Haven't seen the deer lately, but the food does disappear. I just love my deer.
Tim had 2 soccer games today. 1 p.m. and 4 p.m. I was in no way to go to both. Barry took him to the first game. I went to bed (again) and took the phone off the hook. Lately I do that just to not to have it ring. When they came home, Tim told me that he scored from defense. Something that he has always wanted to do. Barry then went to store for some groceries for Easter.
Barry came back from store with a lovely bouquet of ROSES. Something that is not done everyday, believe me. Must love me a bit. Not sure what is going on in his head, he's a male and doesn't talk much about it. It's a lot of go through, for all family members. Tim has been extra caring today, I notice a little more touching on his part towards me. An extra hug of comfort from him. He's a true blessing.
We all went to the 4 pm. game. Unfortunately they lost, but Tim played as good as he could play. After the game, we went to Tanner's. These past 2 weeks I have not cooked much of anything. But tomorrow is Easter and we will have spiraled ham. At Tanner's I had chicken francaise which I've dreamed about all day.
A complication of the meds/or side effects is constipation. I'm one who can go at times for a week, and right now I feel that lots has gone in to my tummy and little has come out. Have to be honest in posting, so that's honesty. Have been told by Barry to drink lots of water, and nurse Maureen said to buy some senacoc. Not sure of spelling. Will do that tomorrow after church.
By the time evening has come, I feel almost myself. No more dope effect. Will try to only take tylenol for now.
It was during conversation at dinner that I asked Barry of doing a journal online. It was both Tim and Barry that suggested a blog. An online journal that has become very popular. This will be my way of communicating with all my friends and family along this journey.
Please post any positive comments as you read of my recovery. I am not sure what is in the future, but I know that God only gives what you can take. And I do believe, that in each and every day you must find something good to look at. To keep tucked in the memory. Today, it was being with Barry and Tim and knowing that next month my family will be here to visit with me. Mom doesn't think she can travel, but I'm sure that in time she will come back to God's country once again.
I got right back into bed after saying hi to Barry and the boys. I did offer to cook breakfast for them, but am thankful that Barry said no thanks.
For the first time in a long time, I dreamed after going back to bed. I dreamed that there were deer in my back yard. I told Tim out in the hot tub and they must have heard me. The deer scurried away. Boy, did it feel good to dream. For once, I felt that I was actually able to sleep.
I got up at about 11 a.m. Tim and Josh had rode their bikes downtown. Josh got picked up. I continued to be dopey feeling, and I don't like that feeling. Got myself dressed and filled the deer feeder with some food. Haven't seen the deer lately, but the food does disappear. I just love my deer.
Tim had 2 soccer games today. 1 p.m. and 4 p.m. I was in no way to go to both. Barry took him to the first game. I went to bed (again) and took the phone off the hook. Lately I do that just to not to have it ring. When they came home, Tim told me that he scored from defense. Something that he has always wanted to do. Barry then went to store for some groceries for Easter.
Barry came back from store with a lovely bouquet of ROSES. Something that is not done everyday, believe me. Must love me a bit. Not sure what is going on in his head, he's a male and doesn't talk much about it. It's a lot of go through, for all family members. Tim has been extra caring today, I notice a little more touching on his part towards me. An extra hug of comfort from him. He's a true blessing.
We all went to the 4 pm. game. Unfortunately they lost, but Tim played as good as he could play. After the game, we went to Tanner's. These past 2 weeks I have not cooked much of anything. But tomorrow is Easter and we will have spiraled ham. At Tanner's I had chicken francaise which I've dreamed about all day.
A complication of the meds/or side effects is constipation. I'm one who can go at times for a week, and right now I feel that lots has gone in to my tummy and little has come out. Have to be honest in posting, so that's honesty. Have been told by Barry to drink lots of water, and nurse Maureen said to buy some senacoc. Not sure of spelling. Will do that tomorrow after church.
By the time evening has come, I feel almost myself. No more dope effect. Will try to only take tylenol for now.
It was during conversation at dinner that I asked Barry of doing a journal online. It was both Tim and Barry that suggested a blog. An online journal that has become very popular. This will be my way of communicating with all my friends and family along this journey.
Please post any positive comments as you read of my recovery. I am not sure what is in the future, but I know that God only gives what you can take. And I do believe, that in each and every day you must find something good to look at. To keep tucked in the memory. Today, it was being with Barry and Tim and knowing that next month my family will be here to visit with me. Mom doesn't think she can travel, but I'm sure that in time she will come back to God's country once again.
On my way
Have been thinking of ways to communicate to all my family and friends, on how I am feeling and how I am doing through this new journey that has presented itself to me. To me, I think it will be beneficial to keep track of these feelings in a journal of some kind. And was with Barry and Tim's help that they came up with the idea of a "blog", a new word that became part of the encylclopedia recently. Basically it means an electronic journal.
I am going to back-pedal a month or so to show how I ended up at the spot where I now am.
I do hope and expect to hear positive energy from all who read my thoughts. I must say that all your prayers are felt deep inside my heart during these difficult times. I only know that I am going to be a better person as a result of this experience.
I am going to back-pedal a month or so to show how I ended up at the spot where I now am.
I do hope and expect to hear positive energy from all who read my thoughts. I must say that all your prayers are felt deep inside my heart during these difficult times. I only know that I am going to be a better person as a result of this experience.
Friday, March 25, 2005
Recovery continues
Today I am feeling so dopey/drugged. Don't understand how and why druggies do drugs. I think I pushed myself too much yesterday. I had major surgery. Just feel like I'm in la la land most of the day. Will only take pain killer in the evening before I go to bed. Not a good feeling to have.
Attempt to nap during the day. Tim is off of school today. Had hoped to go to Olive Garden for shrimp scampi, but that never happens. Just not up to par.
I call work and speak to Carrie and Jenn. Just want them to know I am OK.
For dinner I heated up some frozen clam strips. Ended up throwing them away. Couldn't even taste anything like a clam. Barry had Stouffers macaroni and cheese.
Tim had Josh Hoppe sleep over. Didn't even know he was here. Just played video and pc games. I went to bed by 10 p.m. I could hear them brush their teeth at midnight. Right on schedule.
Continue to get up many times in the evening to pee, uncomfortable sleeping.
Attempt to nap during the day. Tim is off of school today. Had hoped to go to Olive Garden for shrimp scampi, but that never happens. Just not up to par.
I call work and speak to Carrie and Jenn. Just want them to know I am OK.
For dinner I heated up some frozen clam strips. Ended up throwing them away. Couldn't even taste anything like a clam. Barry had Stouffers macaroni and cheese.
Tim had Josh Hoppe sleep over. Didn't even know he was here. Just played video and pc games. I went to bed by 10 p.m. I could hear them brush their teeth at midnight. Right on schedule.
Continue to get up many times in the evening to pee, uncomfortable sleeping.
Thursday, March 24, 2005
Day after lumpectomy
Tim and I got hair cuts today. Tim got one since it was so long, and I got one as a special treat.
I am unable to wash it, so I thought it would be treat to have it done by Retta at the beauty parlor. They were totally booked, but I told the receptionist to tell Retta that I had called for appt. Within a few minutes, she called and I was able to get it cut in the afternoon. Wow, did that feel good. She and I discussed wigs. If I'm going to lose my hair, I want a perfect wig for the hairstyle that I am never able to get on my own hair. Wigs are covered by insurance. I have learned the term is cranial prosthesis. I've read that many people do cut their hair right before chemo due to the fact that chemo can make you lose hair in clumps. Barry said he wants long haired wig. Don't think that will happen! A nice strawberry colored bob wig will do just fine.
I also got Tim some track shoes since track starts next week. Tim and I ate out together and took our sundaes to go.
All in all, a good day. Time to spend with family is so important. I continue to get such nice emails from family and friends. I certainly do feel the power of prayer.
I am unable to wash it, so I thought it would be treat to have it done by Retta at the beauty parlor. They were totally booked, but I told the receptionist to tell Retta that I had called for appt. Within a few minutes, she called and I was able to get it cut in the afternoon. Wow, did that feel good. She and I discussed wigs. If I'm going to lose my hair, I want a perfect wig for the hairstyle that I am never able to get on my own hair. Wigs are covered by insurance. I have learned the term is cranial prosthesis. I've read that many people do cut their hair right before chemo due to the fact that chemo can make you lose hair in clumps. Barry said he wants long haired wig. Don't think that will happen! A nice strawberry colored bob wig will do just fine.
I also got Tim some track shoes since track starts next week. Tim and I ate out together and took our sundaes to go.
All in all, a good day. Time to spend with family is so important. I continue to get such nice emails from family and friends. I certainly do feel the power of prayer.
Wednesday, March 23, 2005
Lumpectomy
Barry and I got to the hospital for 7 a.m. Hopefully Tim will get up and out of bed on time for bus. I have the faith he will. I kissed him good bye at 6:15 a.m.
The nurses and dr. greeted us once again. Familiar faces seem so good. And my buddy Chris was there. I told him that Barry said I would do anything to see him again. His remark was that he would have someone else medicate me, since Barry was bigger than him. Just a cool guy.
And you can see through his surgical cap that they wear, he is balding on top but who cares..
I was second in line for surgery with Dr. Henwood. I didn't get started until about 7:45 a.m. from what I remember. This time I was brought into operating room and moved to the other table. Chris told me to think of something nice to dream of, I told him it would be a cruise.
He mentioned that he had never been on one before. That was the last thing I remember before waking up in recovery.
I think it was about 10:10 a.m. when I was coming to. I didn't feel as dizzy this time in coming out of the anesthesia for some reason. But I did feel more sore this time. Dr. Henwood stopped by, I asked him about recovery and he said to stay out of work for a week. He had taken a larger area out this time, a larger incision. Barry was eventually brought in to sit with me. I had my glass of apple juice.
Not sure of the time, but I was given directions again for the care and treatment of the incision and was let go. Barry ran in to D'Onofrios for some good hot soup. It was such a long ride home this time from hospital. I was sore and in need of going to the bathroom. Couldn't wait to run into the bathroom, or should I say quickly walk into the bathroom.
Barry went to drugstore to fill prescription for painkiller. I called family and work to quickly tell them that I was home. It was now about noon. After he returned, I took one pill and got into my jammies. Boy, do I love my jammies and my bed. They are such good friends.
Wasn't able to sleep much due to the soreness and location of the incision. More sore than 2 weeks ago. But that's due to it not having been healed and bigger area.
Dr. Henwood said results of biopsy will be next Monday/Tuesday. My next follow up appt. is 9 a.m. on 3/29/05.
Flowers from Amy Perell, FNB Branch manager are delivered to me.
6 p.m. Marian LeJeune and Becky Hoppe stop by with gifts. Visit for about 1/2 hr.
Barry delivers Combine Bros. to Tim and me. Mmm. What a treat.
Nights continue to be sleepless. Sleeping pill helps for a few hrs.
The nurses and dr. greeted us once again. Familiar faces seem so good. And my buddy Chris was there. I told him that Barry said I would do anything to see him again. His remark was that he would have someone else medicate me, since Barry was bigger than him. Just a cool guy.
And you can see through his surgical cap that they wear, he is balding on top but who cares..
I was second in line for surgery with Dr. Henwood. I didn't get started until about 7:45 a.m. from what I remember. This time I was brought into operating room and moved to the other table. Chris told me to think of something nice to dream of, I told him it would be a cruise.
He mentioned that he had never been on one before. That was the last thing I remember before waking up in recovery.
I think it was about 10:10 a.m. when I was coming to. I didn't feel as dizzy this time in coming out of the anesthesia for some reason. But I did feel more sore this time. Dr. Henwood stopped by, I asked him about recovery and he said to stay out of work for a week. He had taken a larger area out this time, a larger incision. Barry was eventually brought in to sit with me. I had my glass of apple juice.
Not sure of the time, but I was given directions again for the care and treatment of the incision and was let go. Barry ran in to D'Onofrios for some good hot soup. It was such a long ride home this time from hospital. I was sore and in need of going to the bathroom. Couldn't wait to run into the bathroom, or should I say quickly walk into the bathroom.
Barry went to drugstore to fill prescription for painkiller. I called family and work to quickly tell them that I was home. It was now about noon. After he returned, I took one pill and got into my jammies. Boy, do I love my jammies and my bed. They are such good friends.
Wasn't able to sleep much due to the soreness and location of the incision. More sore than 2 weeks ago. But that's due to it not having been healed and bigger area.
Dr. Henwood said results of biopsy will be next Monday/Tuesday. My next follow up appt. is 9 a.m. on 3/29/05.
Flowers from Amy Perell, FNB Branch manager are delivered to me.
6 p.m. Marian LeJeune and Becky Hoppe stop by with gifts. Visit for about 1/2 hr.
Barry delivers Combine Bros. to Tim and me. Mmm. What a treat.
Nights continue to be sleepless. Sleeping pill helps for a few hrs.
Tuesday, March 22, 2005
Test results are in/Food party at work
At about noon, I got the test results of the CT scans and bone scan. All are NORMAL. What a relief. My whole weekend consisted of things going over in my head. Not being able to sleep is tiring me down. Even after hearing those words, hard to comprehend anything. Head just spins and I go through the motions. I continue to be a positive person as that is so important now.
It's also a food party day at work. Systems and us got together to celebrate spring. Or perhaps, just to celebrate life. Truly good people are out there to help us along any path that comes our way.
Surgery is set for tomorrow.
Per Mom Kaminske's request/suggestion Tim and I visit with Fr. Philip at St. Camillus Church for Sacrament of the anointing of the sick. Wasn't sure how Tim would handle this but he's a real trouper. It was a very powerful experience. I had never thought of doing this. Never thought that Tim would have to participate in such an event. But he continues to be my strength. I can't explain it, but that evening I felt such a calmness come over me. Went to bed without shedding a tear.
I continue to read 2 inspirational books each night. The passages are just long or short enough.
And for some strange reason, usually have to do with what I am going through. Tonight the passage was the power of prayer. I don't consider myself a holier than thow person, but do feel such strength in God, especially through upbeat Christian songs. I don't go around preaching, but I do go around spreading goodness and being positive.
It's also a food party day at work. Systems and us got together to celebrate spring. Or perhaps, just to celebrate life. Truly good people are out there to help us along any path that comes our way.
Surgery is set for tomorrow.
Per Mom Kaminske's request/suggestion Tim and I visit with Fr. Philip at St. Camillus Church for Sacrament of the anointing of the sick. Wasn't sure how Tim would handle this but he's a real trouper. It was a very powerful experience. I had never thought of doing this. Never thought that Tim would have to participate in such an event. But he continues to be my strength. I can't explain it, but that evening I felt such a calmness come over me. Went to bed without shedding a tear.
I continue to read 2 inspirational books each night. The passages are just long or short enough.
And for some strange reason, usually have to do with what I am going through. Tonight the passage was the power of prayer. I don't consider myself a holier than thow person, but do feel such strength in God, especially through upbeat Christian songs. I don't go around preaching, but I do go around spreading goodness and being positive.
Monday, March 21, 2005
Day of testing at hospital
I went to UPMC in the morning for 3 different tests. CT scans of abdomin and chest, along with bone scan. I had to drink some milky type liquid for one test, and an injection in my arm for the other. One of the side effects of the injection I was told my the nurse and Maureen was this:
don't be surprised if your ears get hot or your crotch area gets hot! The nurse said that if it happened, just enjoy. If not, sorry. I am happy to say that the crotch area got hot for awhile.
Might as well have something good come out of a test!
I had asked Dr. Henwood for sleeping pill and he called in one for me. Will pick it up after work today. Can you believe ambien was not covered by my insurance. Heck, you can buy illegal drugs on street corners but not ambien by prescription.
The bone scan involved having some radioactive stuff put in my vein and to return in 4 hrs. for the actual 1 hr. scan. I could drink or eat anything in between. I immediately went to Burger King. And no, I did not get any soda to drink Tim! I gave that up for Lent. And since we are being honest, I have to admit that I went off the wagon once or twice and had some soda. Must have been the devil.
The bone scan involved laying flat on my back without moving for about an hr. as the machine slowly scanned my body. And slowly is the key word. I didn't move an inch. They even taped up my feet to keep them still.
After the scan, I went home and didn't go back to work. A very tiring day, mostly mentally.
The results would be sent to Dr. Henwood as soon as possible.
don't be surprised if your ears get hot or your crotch area gets hot! The nurse said that if it happened, just enjoy. If not, sorry. I am happy to say that the crotch area got hot for awhile.
Might as well have something good come out of a test!
I had asked Dr. Henwood for sleeping pill and he called in one for me. Will pick it up after work today. Can you believe ambien was not covered by my insurance. Heck, you can buy illegal drugs on street corners but not ambien by prescription.
The bone scan involved having some radioactive stuff put in my vein and to return in 4 hrs. for the actual 1 hr. scan. I could drink or eat anything in between. I immediately went to Burger King. And no, I did not get any soda to drink Tim! I gave that up for Lent. And since we are being honest, I have to admit that I went off the wagon once or twice and had some soda. Must have been the devil.
The bone scan involved laying flat on my back without moving for about an hr. as the machine slowly scanned my body. And slowly is the key word. I didn't move an inch. They even taped up my feet to keep them still.
After the scan, I went home and didn't go back to work. A very tiring day, mostly mentally.
The results would be sent to Dr. Henwood as soon as possible.
Friday, March 18, 2005
Meet with Dr. Henwood about options
Barry and I met with Dr. Henwood to go over options. A second surgery will need to be done any way. While we were at the doctor's office, Dr. Henwood consulted over the phone with Dr. Garrow. The type of cancers were discussed. I had my cheat sheet of questions, along with some knowledge that I had gained from different websites. Linda Evans and others had given me a wealth of information to look up on the web. Am thankful for any input. Knowledge can only make you stronger. Today's weight: 141 lbs.
I decided, since it has to be my own personal decision, to have the lumpectomy. To go back in to get a clear margin. Cancer free area. Trying to save the breast is what one wants to do first.
And if not a clear margin, a third surgery would be done. This could involve removing lymph nodes and/or mastectomy. Can't believe that I am saying these words like they are everyday words.
Since the type of cancer I have is an invasive/aggressive cancer, Dr. Henwood ordered three tests at UPMC on Monday in preparation for the surgery.
Barry and I had so much to think about. We ended up going to lunch at Olive Garden. Since it was a Friday, I had shrimp scampi which was out of this world. Along with lemonade.
I decided, since it has to be my own personal decision, to have the lumpectomy. To go back in to get a clear margin. Cancer free area. Trying to save the breast is what one wants to do first.
And if not a clear margin, a third surgery would be done. This could involve removing lymph nodes and/or mastectomy. Can't believe that I am saying these words like they are everyday words.
Since the type of cancer I have is an invasive/aggressive cancer, Dr. Henwood ordered three tests at UPMC on Monday in preparation for the surgery.
Barry and I had so much to think about. We ended up going to lunch at Olive Garden. Since it was a Friday, I had shrimp scampi which was out of this world. Along with lemonade.
Thursday, March 17, 2005
My cancer has a name Metaplastic carcinoma
I had called Dr. Wright's office during the day. I wanted her to know that I had cancer since she had read the prior report from radiologist. If anything, I wanted her to know that they were wrong.
She had the recent biopsy report and gave me the names of the cancer. For the first time, my cancer had a name besides cancer.
The bulk of the tumor is metaplastic carcinoma (invasive) and ductal carcinoma in situ (in situ, stays within the duct) . Invasive cancer travels and therefore is a threat.
She had all breast reports and told me that nothing appears in the right breast in the reports.
Eventually, just for my own head I am going to ask for these reports. Just shows how fast this cancer can spread/grow.
Since my cousin Diane had just called me, I wanted her to know the type of cancer. Just wanted to see if the same due to family involvement. It wasn't.
I then surfed the web for information on this type of cancer. Actually it appears to be rare, only 1 percent of diagnosed people have it. Just a lucky person I guess.
She had the recent biopsy report and gave me the names of the cancer. For the first time, my cancer had a name besides cancer.
The bulk of the tumor is metaplastic carcinoma (invasive) and ductal carcinoma in situ (in situ, stays within the duct) . Invasive cancer travels and therefore is a threat.
She had all breast reports and told me that nothing appears in the right breast in the reports.
Eventually, just for my own head I am going to ask for these reports. Just shows how fast this cancer can spread/grow.
Since my cousin Diane had just called me, I wanted her to know the type of cancer. Just wanted to see if the same due to family involvement. It wasn't.
I then surfed the web for information on this type of cancer. Actually it appears to be rare, only 1 percent of diagnosed people have it. Just a lucky person I guess.
Wednesday, March 16, 2005
Tell work that I have cancer
It was a restless night. As I drove to work, I had tears in my eyes. How was I going to tell Michelle that I had cancer? I got to work, turned on my pc and then Michelle came in to office. I think I immediately blurted it out to her. In my head I wanted so much to talk to Linda Evans, a person at the bank that had breast cancer. As others in the department came to work, it became obvious to them that I had bad news.
When Linda Evans came in at about 8:30, Michelle took me to her office and we shared a hug.
It was comforting to have someone that has been through this to be able to talk to.
After many tears, it is amazing how good people can be in difficult times. Even Matt, a new employee in the dept. came over and gave me a hug. This is from a guy who never would usually do such a thing.
I remember Carrie (a co-worker) ask me why I was at work. My only answer was that I needed to be at work. Needed to be kept busy.
It was only a short time since I heard the word cancer, but so many people are praying for me and emailing me. Am so thankful for family and new friends. New friends who are sharing their own personal stories of survival from this dreaded disease.
I believe it was my cousin Diane who said this to me: hang out with only positive people, positive attitude. She said that being positive is so important in the handling of this disease.
When Linda Evans came in at about 8:30, Michelle took me to her office and we shared a hug.
It was comforting to have someone that has been through this to be able to talk to.
After many tears, it is amazing how good people can be in difficult times. Even Matt, a new employee in the dept. came over and gave me a hug. This is from a guy who never would usually do such a thing.
I remember Carrie (a co-worker) ask me why I was at work. My only answer was that I needed to be at work. Needed to be kept busy.
It was only a short time since I heard the word cancer, but so many people are praying for me and emailing me. Am so thankful for family and new friends. New friends who are sharing their own personal stories of survival from this dreaded disease.
I believe it was my cousin Diane who said this to me: hang out with only positive people, positive attitude. She said that being positive is so important in the handling of this disease.
Tuesday, March 15, 2005
Words you never want to hear
Tim was at Mercer Schools today for an exchange concert. I had a message on my machine to call Dr. Henwood's office. The call came in at 2 ish, and I was given a second number if I was returning the call after 5 p.m.
Aleesa put Dr. Henwood on the phone. It was at that moment my life changed. It's not for me to say if for the better or for the worst, since that is all part of God's big plans for me. I heard the words that I never thought I would ever hear. He said that over the phone was not the usual way to relay this information, but he knew I had called for the results. I was all by myself when he said "I'm sorry to say but the tissue was cancerous." Geez, you can never prepare yourself for those hard words. I don't know where I got my strength, but I didn't openly cry. Had to stay composed to hear the whole story. As usual I got out my scrap piece of paper to jot down anything he wrote. Words like chemo/radiation/mastectomy/options... too many to think about.
He needs to go back in for second surgery to get "clear margin", cancer free on all sides of tissue. Since he was not looking for cancer (per radiologist report) he only removed the tumor, didn't try to get clear margin. I also have to see him on Friday to go over in person my "options.
" Who would think that all of a sudden I have to become familiar with such medical terms.
It's almost like a dream, but a bad one.
The first person I called was Barry. He had worked all day doing some special job at Dow Jones. I just blurted out the words "I have cancer" and he said he was coming home immediately. My next call was to Maureen. I could not bear to call my parents especially with my mother fading so fast with her memory. How much could my family take? She and I continued to cry over the phone.
Barry came home right away and I explained everything to him. Not sure of all the people that called me that day, just a blur. Barry and I had to go to Tim's concert. My head was spinning. How do you tell your 14 year old son that you have cancer?
The concert was great. Tim looked so surprised to see Barry there. It was Barry's first concert since he is usually working. Afterwards, we went out to Rachel's since we had not eaten. It was during dinner that Barry would nudge me and ask me when am I going to tell Tim? I finally just had to say the truth to Tim. Am so thankful he is as smart as he is. His first words were: but they got it when they operated on you last week. I had to tell them that they are not sure.
Tim is my strenghth. Must have something to do with how we raise him. His words to me as we entered the house: We just have to stay positive, Mom. How true and how smart a 14 year old can be.
Barry suggested that I call Dr. George Garrow. He's a neighbor and head oncologist to local hospital cancer care unit. I called him at 9:30 p.m. and spoke about 30 minutes with him. He is such a caring man. I started the conversation with: once you hear the words cancer, where do you go? He told me to get piece of paper and write down some questions for surgeon. He had high opinion of Dr. Henwood and said that he is a fine surgeon.
Not sure how I even was able to go to bed this evening. So much on my mind. A phone call can change your life in a moment.
Aleesa put Dr. Henwood on the phone. It was at that moment my life changed. It's not for me to say if for the better or for the worst, since that is all part of God's big plans for me. I heard the words that I never thought I would ever hear. He said that over the phone was not the usual way to relay this information, but he knew I had called for the results. I was all by myself when he said "I'm sorry to say but the tissue was cancerous." Geez, you can never prepare yourself for those hard words. I don't know where I got my strength, but I didn't openly cry. Had to stay composed to hear the whole story. As usual I got out my scrap piece of paper to jot down anything he wrote. Words like chemo/radiation/mastectomy/options... too many to think about.
He needs to go back in for second surgery to get "clear margin", cancer free on all sides of tissue. Since he was not looking for cancer (per radiologist report) he only removed the tumor, didn't try to get clear margin. I also have to see him on Friday to go over in person my "options.
" Who would think that all of a sudden I have to become familiar with such medical terms.
It's almost like a dream, but a bad one.
The first person I called was Barry. He had worked all day doing some special job at Dow Jones. I just blurted out the words "I have cancer" and he said he was coming home immediately. My next call was to Maureen. I could not bear to call my parents especially with my mother fading so fast with her memory. How much could my family take? She and I continued to cry over the phone.
Barry came home right away and I explained everything to him. Not sure of all the people that called me that day, just a blur. Barry and I had to go to Tim's concert. My head was spinning. How do you tell your 14 year old son that you have cancer?
The concert was great. Tim looked so surprised to see Barry there. It was Barry's first concert since he is usually working. Afterwards, we went out to Rachel's since we had not eaten. It was during dinner that Barry would nudge me and ask me when am I going to tell Tim? I finally just had to say the truth to Tim. Am so thankful he is as smart as he is. His first words were: but they got it when they operated on you last week. I had to tell them that they are not sure.
Tim is my strenghth. Must have something to do with how we raise him. His words to me as we entered the house: We just have to stay positive, Mom. How true and how smart a 14 year old can be.
Barry suggested that I call Dr. George Garrow. He's a neighbor and head oncologist to local hospital cancer care unit. I called him at 9:30 p.m. and spoke about 30 minutes with him. He is such a caring man. I started the conversation with: once you hear the words cancer, where do you go? He told me to get piece of paper and write down some questions for surgeon. He had high opinion of Dr. Henwood and said that he is a fine surgeon.
Not sure how I even was able to go to bed this evening. So much on my mind. A phone call can change your life in a moment.
Monday, March 14, 2005
Call Dr. Henwood for results of biopsy
It had been a few days, and I decided to call Dr. Henwood for the results of the biopsy. Actually, I thought this was a stupid and unneccessary thing to do. Thought to myself that cancer must look like cancer, so therefore he would have known it was cancer. Boy, was I wrong.
Alica, his receptionist, told me that the results would usually have been discussed at the follow up scheduled for next week. But she said that she would tell Dr. Henwood that I called for them.
Alica, his receptionist, told me that the results would usually have been discussed at the follow up scheduled for next week. But she said that she would tell Dr. Henwood that I called for them.
Thursday, March 10, 2005
Off of work for 3 days
I didn't work for 3 days after the surgery. The hospital followed up on 3/10 and asked me some questions. Did I dream under anesthesia, and what were last and first things I remember from surgery. Strange questions but must be for a reason.
I was not able to wash the area for 72 hrs. Thank goodness for hot baths. That certainly did feel good.
It felt so good to wash my hair, even though it was done in the kitchen sink.
I was not able to wash the area for 72 hrs. Thank goodness for hot baths. That certainly did feel good.
It felt so good to wash my hair, even though it was done in the kitchen sink.
Wednesday, March 09, 2005
Surgery to remove the lump
We had to be at Edgewood Surgical Hospital at 7:30. The highlight of this day was the anesthesiologist called Chris. He did Barry's meds when he had surgery there a few months ago. It's not that he is gorgeous, but just seems to be a nice and caring guy. Most of the same nurses were there that day. You feel like you have your own private care at this day hospital.
I think the procedure was about 3o minutes or so. Chris would come over toward me, take the 2 vials out of his pocket and say "I've got some good stuff for you." Very cool as he clicked his fingers on the vial. I told him that he must be life of a party.
It wasn't even 5 seconds after the anesthesia went in that I was mumbling something about good whisky sour. This comment had to do with getting nicely drunk in Cleveland the night before we left for Az. And believe me, it was a nice drunk!
Next thing I remember was trying to wake up in recovery. I could see Dr. Henwood sitting down and reading something. Nancy, a nurse would ask how I was doing. Very hard trying to wake up, but when you close your eyes you would be dizzy. A struggle. Eventually they brought Barry in to sit next to me. Dr. Henwood had told Barry that the tissue would be sent for biopsy.
On our way home, Barry stopped at D'Onofrios grocery store for some soup. Nice hot soup.
As soon as I got home, I ate some and Barry went to get my prescription filled.
I must say that I felt pretty good after going through this surgery. I attempted to sleep in the afternoon, but it was difficult due to bandaging on my chest area.
I think the procedure was about 3o minutes or so. Chris would come over toward me, take the 2 vials out of his pocket and say "I've got some good stuff for you." Very cool as he clicked his fingers on the vial. I told him that he must be life of a party.
It wasn't even 5 seconds after the anesthesia went in that I was mumbling something about good whisky sour. This comment had to do with getting nicely drunk in Cleveland the night before we left for Az. And believe me, it was a nice drunk!
Next thing I remember was trying to wake up in recovery. I could see Dr. Henwood sitting down and reading something. Nancy, a nurse would ask how I was doing. Very hard trying to wake up, but when you close your eyes you would be dizzy. A struggle. Eventually they brought Barry in to sit next to me. Dr. Henwood had told Barry that the tissue would be sent for biopsy.
On our way home, Barry stopped at D'Onofrios grocery store for some soup. Nice hot soup.
As soon as I got home, I ate some and Barry went to get my prescription filled.
I must say that I felt pretty good after going through this surgery. I attempted to sleep in the afternoon, but it was difficult due to bandaging on my chest area.
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