"i feel like i lost a job"

My job now is to pass the blog word on and today I sent an email to work for a posting for all to read in regards to a promise to Jane we had made. I specifically asked for my work friends to read some comments as they would understand how much my sister Jane meant to me and her family and large circle of friends. I find myself today still trying to believe she is gone-after all I have seen so many pass in my nursing career. Today was like I lost my job-my sister didn't tell me what the day was like-that I needed to post for her.For the past 4 plus years I have been going hand in hand with her on the cancer journey like so many other family and new and old friends starting with the first relay walk when she had just had chemo and was as bald as a cucumber but she held her head ever so high that day and everyday until her last breath on this earth. She once told me that u get it if u have been through cancer-u appreciate every second in time-u never have a harsh word for anybody. I also promised her that I would make sure people are reminded that random acts of kindness go a long way. Another promise was that I would be there for Tim and Barry for Tim's High School graduation in June and the party also. Well thanks to all for your heartfealt soul searching. I think we should put all the tears together and this summer there won't be a water shortage. Of course right now the Kleenex factory is empty. And yes Jane some laughter of past memories will get us thru this journey in memory of u this week. adios the whole family clan who loves u all